5th day of Christmas – Poinsettias and peaceful prayers

This original artwork is titled, “Poinsettias and peaceful prayers” – It’s part of my Soulful Yoga Holiday collection.

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You get your choice of the original 8″ x 10″ artwork on canvas. Wired on back, ready to hang. (1 available) Original price is $95 – Sale price of only $40

Or an 8″x10″ print matted in a white 11″ 14″ mat. Signed by artist. Comes ready to frame or give as gift. – (2 available). Original price – $24.00 Sale price only $12.00

This piece features a prayerful pose, surrounded by swirls and bold red poinsettias. Extra swirls around the heart area.

You can find more info or order here.

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New Christmas Cards are in!

This year I was looking for a great way to be a little more green by using less paper but also really communicate a Christmas message that spoke to me.   My solution;  Christmas postcards.  They are flat Christmas postcards.   Picture on the front and message on the back.   They come with an envelope so you get the classy feel of a Christmas card but you’ll use almost 50% less paper!!  BONUS!

The card features a snowy, winters night. Trees, a lantern and under a tree, a boy laying in his red, warm pjs saying his Christmas prayers.

Due to a lot of things falling perfectly into place I’m able to offer an incredible price on these as well.   Stop on over to my Etsy page and check them out.   They come in sets of 10, perfect for all or part of your holiday card list.   Feel free to share with anyone you know that would love these cards.

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I can feel the growth…

Lately I’ve felt excited, loved, creative and knowing something big is happening.  How is it then that at the same time as I feel a bit vulnerable, frusterated, maybe even scared?  2 sides of the same coin I’m finding. Instead of resisting this anxiety, frusterated feeling I get sometimes I’m learning to embrace it; I’ve learned it means I’m about to to get a great idea or something good is about to happen.

This holiday season blissfully made my head spin a bit. I am finally getting a minute to take a deep breath now, it’s a good thing.  In November I deliberately didn’t schedule classes or projects for December. I thought it’ll be nice to take it easy a bit, and hopefully I’d get some Christmas and Holiday orders.  Well I did, life has been fabulously busy and full.   Life as an artist is never boring. In January I’ll post some of the fun projects I worked on, I don’t want to ruin the surprise in case someone who shouldn’t sees them.  I know that people connect with me and my work more because I am very honest, open about things and vulnerable.  But you know what? it’s much easier watching others be vulnerable sometimes.  Sometimes after pouring myself into a painting or project I’ll put it out there and people will connect and leave me feedback.  I love that. I love to know when someone buys a piece where they put it, who it’s for, how they like it. Is it the same as they expected…  Other times I put it out there and share my work or ideas and …. (insert cricket chirps here) … nothing…     It comes with the territory, I get it… but blah… I don’t like that part.

So will that stop me from continuing to put myself out there?  Apparantly not cuz I’m about to again…    I just finished my C.C. White painting yesterday.  I plan on photographing it this week and I’ll post soon. This painting is big, it’s 4 feet x 4 feet.  She’s gloriously radiating loving energy into my studio right now as she sits on the easel. I can’t wait to share.

 

On another note, I had Bruce draw a name this morning for the winner of the Pallet Art Print.  The winner of a Pallet Art Print is…… Tara Duffy!!!!!  Congrats to here.   Thank you to each and every one of you who entered, shared and comments.    Here is a copy of the links I had in my last posting if you didn’t win but would still like the chance to buy something from the drawing in the future:

Day 1 – Wine Prints – You can find my wine prints and artwork here.

Day 2 – Ornaments – wide variety available here in my studio.  Some themes on hand: new baby girl, new baby boy, girl, woman, wine, guitar, music, couple, family

Day 3 – Yoga print – You can find the exact print here or browse through the etsy site to find all the other poses.

Day 4 – Music Postcard prints – Here

Day 5 – Horse racing 8×10 print. Here

Day 6 – Hand Painted hammher –  You can find the hammhers I have listed on Etsy here   otherwise I have lots more in my studio that are not listed. Set up a time to stop by.

Day 7 – Greeting Cards – again, I have some listed on Etsy here.  I have more that I haven’t had time to list yet in my shop.  Set up a time to stop by or just ask if there is an occasion your looking for a card for.

Day 8 – Coasters – You can find the set of 6 here.

Day 9 – Yoga prints – all yoga prints, cards, pallet artwork, jewelry, posters are here.

Day 10 – Original Crossroads artwork – I’ve got a couple options for you, you can take a class and learn to make your own crossroads artwork.  Or by a print here.

Day 11 – Minnesota Wine Glass Set here.  Or Minnesota Beer Glass Set here.  (You can always request a different state or city)

Day 12 – Today – I have music themed pallets here.  Or the soulful yoga, crossroads and more here.

Have a great day!!! **Noelle

story behind the art: Ridiculous but fun.

So I decided to start playing around today with a painting I did a few years ago. I have had a love affair with the BBC’s version of Pride and Prejudice for almost a decade.  Love it.

Mix that with my favorite holiday of Christmas and I had to have some fun today.

 

 

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You can find the holiday Greeting Card of this print here: https://www.etsy.com/listing/112973677/mr-darcy-from-pride-and-prejudice

I give you permission to say NO

I give you permission to say no.

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I grew up with a superhero a superhero momma. She gave us haircuts or perms more than once the night before school pictures when we begged. Sewed our Halloween costumes, patched our clothing, even hand sewed on hundreds of beads onto my prom dress for me and made a purse to go with it my senior year. She showed up to every sporting event for all 5 of us kids, and even let me move back in with my daughter while I was going through a divorce years ago.  I learned how to be a devoted mother from my mom, I learned how to create a calming, love filled home from her. My biggest lesson however came from my mother as we picked up the pieces after she passed away.

Somewhere in her my mom associated her value with the sacrifices she made for all of us around her.  I watched my mom put each of our needs above her own.  I watched her take on caring part time for my nephew, watching my daughter when she could, I watched my brother come home with a dog (even after my mom told him he couldn’t have a dog in their home) but she gave in and let him keep it because she couldn’t say no. I later watched this dog cause thousands of dollars in damage in her gorgeous, beautifully decorated home.  Thousands of dollars in rugs with holes in them, a solid wood, carved dining room table with the legs chewed around the bottom, she bought a steam cleaner so she could keep up with the pee on the carpets, on and on. Plus then my parents bought the food for the dog, cared for the dog and my mom pretty much eventually stopped going out of town because she knew my brother wouldn’t care for the dog and it would cause more damage.  I watched my adult brother still living at home as if he was a child, my mom still giving him spending money and letting him pursue his dream of being the next Eminem rapper with God knows who coming in and out of their basement recording on the sound system set up down there. All hours of the night these creepy people would be coming in and out with names like Shadow and stuff. Can we just all agree that this in INSANE!!!!  Somewhere along the line I watched my mom blur the line in being loving and caring with enabling and not setting healthy boundaries.

When I was an adult and was back living in Minnesota again I thought it was great that she was going through a wine and cheese phase. . We’d watch movies together and have different wines and cheese and crackers or breads with different dipping oils. It was so much fun.  Pretty much any movie that included a Christmas scene or a house with fun decorating was always our favorites to watch.  What evolved in the years following however none of us saw coming.

Rewind to 2002 My mom was the peak of health, obsessed with vitamins and cooking healthy. She looked great, my sister and I had just had our first babies and our family was at such a fun place.  I was back down in Dallas from 2003-2004 and when I moved back in 2004 things were starting to be a little different. My mom had a knee replacement and was working on recovering from that, at the same time my youngest sister moved out and started college.  My brother was facing ongoing legal battles still haunting him from his wild teenage years and me back home with my daughter going through a divorce.  And then menopause hit. It was a perfect storm.  Had any one of these hit I am confident she would have made it through relatively unscathed.  However that’s not how it happened; the drinking increased secretly, (we didn’t find this out until later, I have since found out that increased drinking is very common during the menopause years) she became more depressed and from that showed even fewer healthy boundaries. She was so busy trying to make sure we were all okay and helping us fix our problems that she didn’t take the time out for herself.  What she needed then was to start saying no. No to the dog, no to spending money as an escape, no to all the relatives, no to us kids, no to trying to solve my brothers legal issues, no to paying for those legal issues, no to watching our kids so much… on and on.  I literally watched my mother’s inability to set healthy boundaries and her selfless act of helping others around no matter what it cost her ultimately kill her.  Her actual cause of death was pancreatitis but I know deep down that the world sucked her dry.

Oh how I wish I could go back and give her permission to be the bad guy a little bit. Tell people occasionally to fix their own shit, find that dog a new home so she could go take a vacation in peace. In fact tell my brother to go find a new home so she could regain her comfort in her own home. Tell all of us that she is not a daycare center.  I would make sure she knew that it’s okay to say no to organizing another event and she needed no other reason then because she needed a night to curl up and watch a much needed movie with my dad.  Sometimes you have to put yourself first; your life can literally depend on it. I wish I could tell my mom that she wouldn’t be letting us down if we had a small Christmas without all the gifts, gourmet meals and amazing décor.  I wish I could tell her that we would still know that she loved us even if she would have just said what she felt instead of feeling guilty that she might be a bad person because she felt resentful about trying to hold the world together for all of us. I wish I could just hug her and tell her that we love her for her and not for the things she did for us.

I’ve really been working on having healthier boundaries myself since she passed.  And just as important; giving myself permission to not have to justify my every moment or decision when setting those boundaries, speak my mind more when I am feeling resentful and explain more why some things I allowed to go for years no longer work for me.  Example: “I wish I could watch my sweet nephews every day of the week but I can’t do that and build my career. Dad, I wish I could continue helping you with your company for virtually free but it no longer works for me. I wish I could give away my artwork anytime someone says they like it but that won’t pay my bills. Sorry brother but until you help yourself by doing steps 1,2 and 3 don’t call me again. Once you do those things I will happily help you with step 4 but I don’t want to have one more phone conversation with you telling me I need to fix your problems and hear about your life falling apart when you haven’t even completed the first fucking step !!!!”

I have learned that there needs to be an equal exchange of energy in any transaction otherwise one person won’t feel satisfied.  How often have you helped someone with something that really put you out.  Only to later realize they really didn’t even appreciate it?  I did this with my ex; I would try to fix his problems, invest a ton of my energy, time and problem solving only to later be bitter that he wasn’t grateful. Finally one day I realized that he hadn’t even asked or wanted my help.  Light bulb moment.

So now I give you permission also to say no, speak your mind and tune into your inner knowing. You can be loving, classy, kind and giving and still have effective boundaries.  You are not bad if you decide you don’t want the neighbors kids showing up at your home at all hours looking for entertainment. You are not a bad person if you say no to someone who wants to borrow money and you know in your gut that the money will not help them or it will cause you to not to be able to cover your own bills. I give you permission to just say, “Sorry, that doesn’t work for me”.  It may help build the no muscle to start with, “sorry I will have to get back to you after I check my schedule.” This will buy you time to really decide if something is a good decision instead of saying yes immediately and then later regretting it. Or for example say, “that day doesn’t work for me to watch your dog but if you are able to do help me fix my garage door  tomorrow that will free me up to be able to come over and pet sit for you this weekend when you’re out of town.”… you get the idea.  It’s sometimes helpful to think about if you’re going to feel resentful after doing whatever it is that has been asked of you, if you are then maybe you’re better off saying no or changing the terms of the agreement.   I’d love to hear any of your stories about how you’ve learned to improve in these areas or times you wish you had.

One of my favorite memories of my mom is her last Christmas just 3 weeks before she passed, my husband, daughter, my mom, a few others and I were all quietly chattering and taking in the peacefulness on a late stroll down her dark, quiet dead end street on the Christmas night of 2008. The snow peacefully falling on us, we were all together and we were all so happy and content.  It was simple, free and fair for all us.  It was also a moment that she didn’t have to sacrifice her own happiness or feel guilty in order for us to be happy.

Added 7/24/2012:  I feel the need to add one more thing to this post.  The reason I’ve chosen to share this incredibly personal and private story is because I know that it was something we as a family never talked about while it was happening.  It was one of those things that was off-limits. There is shame so often felt when we are going through a rough patch.  But if this could happen to my happy, articulate, loving family then it could happen to any family.  And even more importantly if my mom could go through this so could anyone. She was (is) a shining soul, loving and supportive person.  She radiated love and light to all around her. I share my perspective of her journey with a goal of helping other fabulously loving women see another side, another voice outside of their own homes and give them a reason to value themselves and their space, their dreams and cherish them.

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Cheers to you momma!